The problem with writing a blog is that when I'm not writing, I feel guilty about it.
The problem with having two blogs is that guilt doubles.
It's not that I feel bad about not having anything to write about, that doesn't really bother me. If I don't have anything much to say at any point then so be it, I'll wait until something crops up.
The problem is more about having too much to say - ha, who knew, me having a lot to say!? ;)
The thing is, when I know I've thought of something I'd like to write about, but for whatever reason I haven't yet put finger to keypad, it just sort of hangs over me. And then it builds up, and up into this really annoying, anxious naggy, draggy feeling that I 'should' be writing.
Which is really not the point at all - I don't NEED to write anything. There is no SHOULD about it. I'm not being paid for it, it's not my job, I don't have a huge raft of subscribers baying for more (although I have had one anonymous post demanding an update). Since the point of this blog in the first place was about exploring the area of happiness and whatnot, feeling a sense of duty, guilt and shoulding all over the place about it kind of ruins the point.
But it happens nonetheless.
And the problem with that is it creates a kind of blockage. That one post that doesn't make it onto the screen creates a barrier behind which every other post I think of builds up. For some reason, I get complete blog paralysis. On my Feeding Happy blog I have about 15 posts stored up ready to write from the last month or so. Which is ridiculous, because I now actually can't remember the recipes or anything about the food I want to write about. Which means I'm still not writing them until I try to remember/find what it was I did in the first place.
It becomes this huge insurmountable scary mountain of a task.
And I completely forget my own advice.
Like any huge looming massive job, the key is to break it down. Managing to get through all those backed up posts is pretty daunting, but just writing a quick little post about something new that has cropped up is totally doable.
And the funny thing is, as soon as one post is out, they just keep flowing. This is the fourth I've written today and I can hardly type fast enough to get it finished so I can get onto the next one.
The dam is down, the floodgates are open, I'm on a roll and am destined not to shut up again for a very long time.
Sorry about that.